Amber

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I’m pretty sure were more then perfect for each other.

If your a bird…

My sisters been staying with me the last 2 weeks. if I didn’t feel like a mother before I do now. It feels good to know I can help out when needed. But at the same time I like that my life is simple now. Just me and noah. Doing our own thing. Living life just us. I’m totally content with life. My life with just us 2. Yeah. :)

dont waste your time.

i start Beauty School tomorrow. ive been excited for weeks!! and im still excited now but i can feel an anxiety attack coming on.. my anxiety has been so much worse since ive had a baby. probably because now i have like a whole other life to keep save and healthy. idk. but yeah im totally going to have an attack.

noah has a doctor appointment at noon today for a shot. then he will be all caught up with his shots for his age!! and i have to go shopping today for clothes. at school we can only wear solid black shoes, black pants and either solid white shirts or solid black. i bought some black flats yesterday when i was out. they are super cute.  but thats all i have so far. ugh. way to put things of to that last minute.  but good news is tomorrow im giving noah a hair cut with my new equiptment!! yay for beauty school and new everything!!

wednesday i think im taking noah to see santa. they have like a meet santa night downtown. he has like a house set up and the kids got to meet him and tell him what they want for christmas i guess. ill see if noah is afraid of Santa. haha im going to take him to the mall to get his photo taken with santa and im afraid noahs going to be screaming in the photo. lol.

well see.

sorry for this really pointless post. im just bored.

bored.

life has been a little crazy lately. i start school tuesday. im pretty excited about it. beauty school here i come!!! thanksgiving was okay. the holidays are going to be wierd this year with my parents being seperated. my best friend has been in the hospital for 2 months now. shes been out of a coma for about 2 weeks or so. shes doing good. i saw her last week. im just glad she made it through the worst and is getting better. i miss her. we had a benefit dinner for her tonight. it was a really good turn out. and i left an hour and a half before it was over. noah is doing good. hes getting so big. i just love him so much. he is seriously the best. i love my life with him. his sperm donor got another girl pregnant. apparently he wants to have lots of babies and not take care of them. i hope for the babies sake he is there for it. i hope he helps support the baby and raise her. noah and i are so much better off without him  but i still believe everyone should have a daddy. noah has enough love from me alone to make up for not having a dad. plus my whole family would die for noah. i love him. <3 i realllllly should go to bed. i waited in line thursday night from 9pm til 5am for a laptop. it was a 500 dollar laptop for 200. so that was pretty awesome. i stayed up over 40 hours. i am not caught up on my sleep yet. i changed all my settings on my  laptop to be pink. so its the cutest laptop EVER!!! lol. goodnight.

dinner last night with my dad and his new girlfriend was fine. minus the fact this bitch is moving her shit into my MOMS room while my moms stuffs still in it. bitchface. who moves in to their boyfriends house when his WIFE has barley moved out. i hate her. i shouldnt.. but i do. i cant help it.  and my mom asks why i dont hate Moses (her boyfriend) and i say because hes not hanging his clothes in dads closet and using his shit everyday. because hes not moving in trying to take the place of one of my parents. i hate her.

ps im in the Ghetto. for shiz. and someones smoking weeeeeeeeeeddd… its seeeping through the window..

pump the brakes a little..

so life has been effed the hell up without a doubt. in the past 4 weeks ive met my biological father.. found out i have a half brother (Dustin) and i half sister (Samantha). i have met both. its been a pretty intense month. my son turned a year old.  my parents got divorced. both have started new relationships. ive become more sad everysingle day. this isnt me. i dont get depressed.. apparently i do. :/ not fun. noahs been getting some molars in and let me tell you they are AWFFFFUUUULLL. in the past 2 days.. almost 3.. weve gotten mayyyybe 8 hours of sleep.. give or take… probably take.
i have lost allllll ambition i ever had. and i never had much to start with..

basically its a pitty party and im the only one interested.

ive been getting ready for noahs birthday party. its this weekend. and his actual birthday is on wednesday. i cannot believe i have a one year old son. its insane. the year went by soooo fast. and i cherish every moment of it because i was so lucky to have been able to spend the year pretty much home with him!

my date last night was pretty awesome. we walked around downtown geneva and by the lake. then we had ice cream and sat in the best chairs ever and talked for a while. i hope things work out. hes a pretty cool guy. <3